Thursday, January 23, 2014



Well guys, I am off to Peru on Sunday! I have never really traveled alone and I will be going to Cusco, Lima and hiking the Inca Trail to Machu Pichu on my own.  I am really excited for this adventure, but also really scared.  I will have some internet so I may post a bit while I am gone.  I will definitely be posting to Instagram/Facebook.

Also, when I return there will be some changes going on here.  Super excited for a bit of rebranding and (fingers crossed) a lot more blogging!  I bought myself a "real" DLSR camera for my birthday so hopefully the quality of my pictures will increase exponentially.

See you when I return in February!!

Monday, January 20, 2014

Weekend Review

This weekend I went home to LA to celebrate my birthday with family and friends. 

Friday I went to dinner and a movie w my dad. We saw Lone Survivor, which was amazing!! And it definitely doesn't hurt that the oh so hot Tim Riggins (Taylor Kitsch) is one of the main characters!

Saturday I hung out with dad and then went out with friends. We got our nails done, went to dinner at a fun Morrocan restaurant and then went out. 

Sunday we posted up at a bar starting at 11am to watch both the playoff games. It was a crushing loss for us but it was great to spend the while day with good friends!

Since Seattle won, I will definitely be rooting for a win for the Broncos! My sweet godson will be too! How could you not take sides with this little guy!?.....

And since I'm the only person who has to work today, off to work I go!!

Thursday, January 16, 2014


This is me. 28 years old today.
If someone had told me this is where I would be after 28 years, 
I never would have believed them.

In so many ways, I would think I've failed.
I am an ambitious person,
but my highest ambition is to have a great marriage,
and many (overly) loved children.
In this I have failed.

However, if someone had told me I would be an attorney,
or playing tennis,
or post my inner most thoughts for the world to read
or have a deep relationship with God
or have the most loving friends
or be going to Peru alone
or hiking 30 miles
I would have laughed.
Not me.  I am not that brave.

But, here I am doing so many things I would have thought impossible.

In the Bible the number 8 is symbolic for new beginnings.
For me the 28th year of my life is one new beginning.
I am proud of how far I come, but more importantly
I am deeply hopeful for the years yet to come.

Thank you God for having a plan for my 28 years that was so far beyond my dreams.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

A Dependent New Year.

Someone recently asked me if I have a "dependent personality."  At the time, it was in reference to the fact that I have been in three long-term relationships back-to-back.  It really struck a chord with me because I think it was true in part.

However, over the last year and a half while I was dating Russ, I was forced to become more independent.  As we grew apart and he questioned me, I forged out on my own.  I moved to SF where I knew almost no one, I started a new job in a field where I knew nothing, I made new friends, I started this blog, I took up tennis, I put myself out there and I really became independent in a way that I never had before.

When we broke up, it was really important to me to make the most of this time; to be on my own and be independent.  At points, being alone has been really hard, but I have also learned to be happy with myself.  I can honestly say that I like having a partner and I want one again, but I don't need one.

2014 is going to be the year of me....not in a selfish way, but in a way that I celebrate who I am.  I know who I am, what I want and what I believe.  In the past, I have shied away from sharing that openly and exposing too much of myself.  In 2014, I am not going to put away who I am.

I rang in the new year with some of my best friends.  My birthday is in January. After my birthday, I am going to Peru on my first ever solo trip.  These are all new beginnings, fresh starts for me.  This trip to Peru is the culmination of everything I have learned in the last two years of struggle and hurt.  It is the culmination of me being dependent. Yes, that's right, I said dependent.

I am dependent on my family and on my true friends.  I am dependent on myself and what I know.  Most importantly I am dependent on God and His will for my life.  I am not afraid to admit that I am a dependent person.  In fact, I am proud to say that I have people and a God that I trust so deeply. So in 2014, I give my life to God and I know in His hands, I will thrive.  Here is to a new beginning!

Sunday, January 5, 2014

home is where the heart is

The longest I have been home to LA since I moved to SF has been a few days.  Since Christmas fell on a Wednesday, I decided to take the whole week off and go home.

Since I moved to SF, I never really saw myself living in LA again.  I was "so over" LA.  However, I drove down to LA early Saturday morning.  Saturday night I spent out with my best friends and something changed.

Sunday morning I called my mom and told her that my heart was in LA and for the first time, I considered returning someday.

When I had to leave on Sunday I was in the worst mood and actually cried.  Ever since I have been back in SF, all I can think about is getting home to where my heart is...

Sunrise over California as I drove home.

Bijou enjoying some SoCal sunshine

My dad spoiling me with flowers and making it impossible for me to ever find a man to live up to my expectations!!

Saturday night out with my best friends

Brussy got a haircut...

...and so did I!!